A God of Second Chances

When I was 19 years old, God grabbed 'hold of my heart in a powerful way. He put a very clear calling on my life and opened countless doors to make this new desire of my heart happen.

Then, somewhere along the way I turned God's plan into MY plan and things started going horribly wrong.

I met a guy (not my ex-husband). I liked him. He liked me. He was headed for full-time Christian ministry and he seemed to fit perfectly into "God's Plan" for my life (the plan I hijacked and made my own). God had given me everything else I wanted and I decided it was time He gave me a help-mate too. Ha!

It ended badly... so badly it changed everything in my life more dramatically than I realized.

I turned away from God. Oh sure, I paid lip-service. I went to church like I always had. I was good at going through the motions and I slipped back into that habit like sliding into my favorite worn-out robe. I did everything in the name of God and God's will without consulting Him at all.

I got involved with my ex, got pregnant and got married... starting an eight year long spiral away from Christ. A desert experience that took up nearly a third of my life. I screwed things up beyond all recognition and yet, here I stand - eleven years after that first powerful calling - having come full-circle and feeling that call again.

I can only stand in awe and wonder, looking to the Savior of my soul and my dreams, and praising Him for being a God of second chances.

God Did It!!!

Somehow, some way, God managed to get me through school. I graduated on Saturday!!!

It is so surreal. I never thought this day would come. Is it bad to admit it kind of scares me to be done? Now I have to think about grad school and the real work is about to begin.

He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it... (Philippians 1:6)

I'm hangin' on to that promise, let me tell you! The only reason I have any confidence at all is because I know God has a plan for my life and I'm along for the ride!