It's Morning

You're probably thinking "duh" or maybe "It isn't morning here anymore."

Think metaphorically with me here for a moment.

I've had my night, now I'm claiming my morning. (See Psalm 30:5 if you still need a hint). I need a morning.

But... umm... couldn't I please sleep in?

School starts for my munchlets in four days. For the first time since I've had kids in school, I didn't go school clothes shopping, didn't buy school supplies and didn't help them pick out shoes and backpacks. My mom did though. Thank you God for my mom!

It stings a little, but I'm grateful all the same.

Even if I had the money, in my current state of mind I am quite certain that at least one of us would not come back from a trip to Wal-mart in one piece. Four kids in Wal-mart when I'm already stressed = recipe for disaster or dismemberment.

I'm kidding about the dismemberment (I think).

It kind of puts things in perspective when the thought of doing something I used to look forward to every year (I have a thing for school supplies) filled me with dread. I am (was?) in trouble.

I let things go for way too long.

I'm just going to have to take this one day - one night and one morning - at a time. Sometimes it's hard to remember that morning will come.

But it always does. And always will until the Lord comes again.

I met with my pastor and his wife last night. I can't thank God enough for what He did in bringing them to our church. They are wonderful people and as a couple they are too cute (it would almost be revolting if it wasn't so genuine) for words. And people prayed for me. People who wouldn't know me from Eve if it weren't for the blogiverse. Technology is such a powerful tool, isn't it?

I wish I could say "Today is a new day and I feel STUPENDOUS!!" But, I can't. And seriously, wouldn't I seem a little schitzoid if I did?

What I do feel is tired. But not in a bad way. Just tired. And maybe even "OK."